So often we try to fill our hearts and lives with people that we think will be good to us and treat us good. We try to hang on to people that we think will fulfill us and make us happy. We depend on people for everything from love to paying the rent. People come and go. They live with us. They leave us. They hurt us. They use us. They trade up and trade in. They pass away from this world and are never seen again. They lie to us, cheat us and bullshit us but none of that matters. You are probably asking how can I say that. I can say that because I have a relationship with the only one who really matters.
Yes we love our spouse, our better half, our child, our grandchild, our mother and our dad. And we want to give them the world and love them with all we have. But they don't fulfill us. They aren't who we are. They can not make us happy. They can not complete us. They can not make us feel fulfilled. There is only one relationship that we can have that will complete us, make us feel fulfilled, give us peace and fill us with joy and that is a relationship with our creator. You're probably wondering how do you have a real relationship with someone you can't see or touch or hold or smell or call on the phone or text or email.
Well you can do all of those things but in a different capacity than what you are used to. God Is Spirit. But he manifest himself in ways that we can see, smell, touch and hold. He is the creator of the heavens and the earth. All life comes from him. All blessings come from him. When you accept Jesus Christ (Hebrew name Yahusha MaHashyach) as your redeemer and believe in your heart that he paid for all your sins and confess with your mouth that he is your Lord and Savior you are saved, cleansed from all your sins, healed, and become a member of the body of Christ. And then ask God Almighty (Hebrew name Yahuah Elohim) to fill you with the holy spirit (Hebrew name Rauch Ha-Kodesh) you are born again of God's seed and filled with the holy spirit.
You can talk to God anytime and anywhere you want to. You can say it quietly to yourself or out loud. You can write him letters. You can sit in your favorite place and welcome him, give him praise and talk to him like He is the best friend you ever had because He is. He loves you just as you are. He knows everything about you and lovingly forgives you of every wrong you have ever done and washes it clean away. And he never remembers it. He will never remember or bring up or throw in your face anything that you have done wrong. When you get saved your sins are and always will be gone. He sees his child who has been cleansed and filled with his spirit.
Find an Assemblies of God or church who believes in the gospel of Jesus Christ and holy spirit and talk to the pastor or bishop there to make a connection with other believers. But most importantly talk to God every day and share your heart with him. Praise Him for the good things and pour your heart out to him about everything else. God Is no respecter of persons. He loves you and He always will and He will never leave you nor forsake you.
Holy Bible King James Version
John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believers in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
Romans 10:9-10 That if thou shalt confess with they mouth the Lord Jesus, and shall believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made into salvation.
John 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: but I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
How to pray:
I know I am a sinner. I believe that your Son, Jesus Christ, died for all my sins and was raised from the dead. I ask you to forgive me of all my sins. I invite you to come into my heart and my life. I ask you to fill me with your holy spirit. Amen.
Now get a Holy Bible of your own or download a kjv app from the app store and start reading the bible every day. If you don't understand something ask God to give you understanding and wisdom. God bless you.